Intention

Yesterday I had many beautiful conversations with a really interesting gentleman. One conversation in particular was concerning the word "intention" and more specifically "alignment" with the mind, body and soul/spirit. In the few hours we spent together I learn so much from just one person.

While I have many theories about many different subjects........he seemed to have his thought process together and clear. I can honestly say that I am impressed. This whole "intention" conversation lingered in my head today.

My argument was that I don't like the word intention because it become the excuse to individuals who make promises and don't keep them but use the word to justify their lack of worth. I intended to attend, call, visit, text, write,or whatever the verbal agreement was made. So in that instance the word no longer holds value or worth.

He then explained to me that for whatever reason those individuals are not aligned to the mind, body and spirit. I am not giving him justice here with my words or by even trying to but it in writing but I have to write about it and share it with you all.

In that moment I remembered that I all ready knew that but somewhere in the mist of disappointment I had forgotten that those individuals are not balanced or aligned and that I should be the one with compassion for them.  But I have learned to create boundaries with individuals that have "intent" but have not figured out how to align their life in order to remain balanced myself.

He then mentioned to me a psychology term that I kept trying to remember this morning and even now I am having difficulties remembering. In essence it is the term for the individual who is helping another person face intense moments and the act of knowing that the "helper" is not responsible for the end outcome but only for their participation in the situation which is to help. In other words it creates a healthy boundary for the helper to maintain self sanity and not to take anything personally.

This evening I had every intention of going to the gym. I pictured myself working out as I was driving home. I purchased three new songs on my ipod for my gym playlist. I changed into my favorite workout cloths and brushed my teeth to feel fresh. But I could not find my purple lock to lock up my purse and sweater. I looked for 3o minutes between my car, the studio and my bedroom. Nothing. In the mean time I started replying to text messages, emails and phone calls. By the time I was done with all that I decided to join my mom and her comadre in praying the Rosary. Well really they saw me looking and looking and they reminded me that everything happens for a reason and maybe I was not suppose to go to the gym today. Then I had a flashback to that conversation and in my own mouth I said I don't like the word "intention" and I hear "your not aligned then" so that's when I knew I was suppose to stay in to pray the rosary and lay my yoga matt out to practice my breathing.

My mantra is about "inner peace" and tonight's yoga will be meditating for just that.

I still don't remember the term he was advising me and the purple lock was in my car the whole time.
That doesn't change the fact that I was not aligned but I am aware and ready to find my balance.